Category: Anxiety

Trying to find hope in the face of climate grief

The future is so unknowable. I’m sure in the cold war age there was a similar sense of dread as now, but the difference with climate change is that our fates aren’t determined by another government – it’s determined by an inter-tangled web of capitalists and government policies, and the degradation of our natural environment …

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Plans and time

[A post-it note with a drawing of an old person with a walker and a laptop on the walker. The text reads: Don’t worry, you can do your gamedev when you’re retired*! * Retirement not guaranteed for millennials, gen Z, and later.] I’ve been thinking a lot about goals lately, and just in general not …

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I always beat myself up during holidays… (My internal monologue)

Oh, I have some free time? I don’t immediately have a ton of work to get done? Be productive. Utilize every second to make something. Don’t relax. You’re wasting a precious, finite resource: free time. Or, try to relax. Why aren’t you relaxing? Stop being bad at being a human. Stop working so much. Just …

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Exhaustion, depression, and directionlessness

Maybe if I hadn’t been so over-worked the last two years, I would be willing to stick with it longer. But, working up to 12-hour-days on days I have class, and then spending so much of my time off-campus also at a computer working – prepping, grading, answering questions, etc. – has thoroughly burnt me …

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Parties for Introverts

I want to plan an introvert-friendly wedding reception party (for sometime in January?)… So for instance, somebody on Mastodon suggested “drinks and live music”. This is not a party I would enjoy, because I would just stand around not knowing what to do with myself – I’m awkward like that. It is better when there’s …

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